Relief is a Blessing
Everything
right now seems overwhelming. With maintaining grades to social life activities
to involvement in church to chemo, sometimes I want to crawl up in a ball in my
bed and go to sleep. I don’t want to face the world on those types of days. I
cannot seem to shake off whatever hinders me from my full potential.
On
these days, relief is scarce. Almost nonexistent if you will.
Truthfully,
the only person I need relief from is myself. My life is different now and I
have a hard time understanding and grasping that concept. I have unordinary things
going on in my life and trying to live how I used to live won’t cut it anymore.
I have to adapt daily to get by, and sometimes I give myself too much. I listen
to myself too much and that’s a problem because there is a difference between
listening to yourself and talking to yourself.
We
must talk to ourselves instead of letting ourselves to talk to us.
If
we allow ourselves to talk to us, what things do you think we will hear? Things
such as ‘You can’t do it’ or ‘You’re not any good anymore’? I believe mostly
negative thoughts will form from this, and as a person who takes positive
reinforcement better than negative reinforcement, we need more positive
reinforcement. If we don’t tell ourselves that we can do it, who else will tell
us? The world won’t tell you that. The world will chew you up, spit you out,
forget it ate you already, and do it all over again. We must talk to ourselves
to find relief through God.
When
we think of prayer, we think of talking about ourselves to God. But think of
prayer this way: When we pray, we’re talking to ourselves and to God about
ourselves.
That’s
where I find my relief. Prayer is powerful, and I find my relief in the grace
that is in Christ Jesus. His hope, His promise, His glory. All of these things are
where I draw my strength from.
I
may have the “c” word and I may not always feel the best because of it, but my hope
is found in Jesus. The relief I’m constantly blessed with is because of Jesus.
I cannot imagine the patients who have chemotherapy every single day.
Seriously, I am on the couch at least for one day after chemo and cannot and do
not even want to think about getting up the day after to repeat the process all
over again.
Just
for a minute, imagine I have finished all of my treatments of chemotherapy and
that I am cancer-free and in remission. Imagine a normal lifestyle for me. I
wake up, go to class, get lunch, hang out with friends, study, and take a nap,
all normal like it should be. My question is this: Did I get relief? Ninety-nine
percent of people would say well of course you got relief, you beat cancer and you
finished chemo which is what made you feel awful and abnormal! Here is where I would
differ from those people:
True
relief does not come when the problem is resolved, it comes when you realize
God is in control.
Read
that again.
I
will always have problems in my life and I will never be truly relieved until
I have accepted the fact that God is in control.
And when I was burdened with
worries, you comforted me and made me feel secure.”
-Psalms 94:19 CEV
When
God is in control, nothing happens by accident and everything has a purpose.
Temporary relief might exist and might feel good, but permanent relief is the only
way to always have that comfort.
We
must let go and let God.
I
found relief in God and you can too. Talk to yourself instead of letting
yourself talk to you. Love God. Love yourself. Love your neighbors.
Feed
your faith and your fears will starve.
Pray for you daily. Thank you for these wise words.
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